Here in San Francisco, there are a lot of self-proclaimed “sensitive” people out there, myself included. With its mystical foggy days, colorful citizens, candy-colored Victorians, and lush greenery, San Francisco is a town that beckons not only the thrill-seekers and argonauts, but also the sensitive, artistic seekers & Peter Pans
The man or woman with a sensitive temperament is drawn to beauty, nostalgia, and all things romantic, including the idea of a loving, committed partnership (and also to white knights, unicorns, mermaids, and dragons.) These sensitive souls are often open to all the self-growth activities the new age community in the Bay Area has to offer - from Ecstatic Dance to teahouses to meditation to Tantric Sex workshops and Ganja Yoga. They aren’t afraid to talk about their feelings, or philosophize about the Truth and what it means to be Authentic. They will fearlessly attend Burning Man or Landmark and turn down the idea of a real job for a labor of love--be it their art or music or yet another start-up.
Yet, all too often, I see these gentle folk serially skipping and slipping from one relationship to the next in a relationship pattern reminiscent of the theory of eternal return. These love-driven folk are so sensitive to the reality of the love that they are seeking, it seems they run from it--whether through a proclamation that they prefer polyamory, or that he/she isn’t “the one,” or that they’re confused, or just “not ready.” Essentially, no matter what the reason, it boils down to a basic unwillingness to commit to and accept the reality of the moment they are in. The reality of the relationship they are in feels different from the mermagic unicorn romantic love they KNOW they are seeking, and thus, they feel justified in the decision to leave what appears to be dissonant with their vision.
A common trajectory of relationships here in the Bay is for three weeks to three months of romance to suddenly fizzle into the ether for no apparent reason, and I believe the dynamic I describe here is why.
We Highly Sensitive People confuse Romance with real love. We think partnership is about romance, and when we get that romance and are still unsatisfied, we think it’s time to move on in search of what we really want. Romance is only the beginning of opening our hearts to another. To truly achieve the real love that our souls want requires that we build a container that romance alone cannot provide. Commitment is that container--commitment first and foremost to ourselves, what we stand for and what we want. In the case of love relationships, commitment to another is a natural extension of that commitment to what is true for us. Commitment, and love itself, require some sacrifice and some adjustment. We must adjust ourselves to the commitment we have made. We must change or attune ourselves in some way and sacrifice some small part of our freedom, our lives, or our priorities. We may have to shift our habits or likes, our routines or our friendships. This small sacrifice we make creates the container that can become the foundation for mature love.
So, is the answer to give up our dreams of Romance and white knights and unicorns and mermaids and settle into reality? NO. The answer is to hold those feelings in a delicate balance--with our reason and logic. To create a solid structure and to build a foundation of relationship, the polarities of the reason and the love, the order and the imagination, are necessary. The answer is to grow up your ideas of what romance and love really are -- they are separate, and both are necessary. Realize that romance and freedom and good feelings exist at the same time as limitation and sacrifice and painful, difficult feelings. And realize that sometimes, everything feels all the more beautiful because of that. If True Love is what you want, the answer to the question of finding it is to commit to standing in all of it. The commitment won’t find you, but if you can find the commitment in yourself and stand in it, you will experience greater depths of your self and soul than you ever have before. And whatever happens after, in that commitment to yourself and your values and to that person before you, you will have found Love.
Lauren Korshak is a San Francisco-based Dating & Relationship Coach, Marriage and Family Therapist, and professional connector (and former matchmaker). She has a BA in Psychology from USC and an MA in Somatic Psychology from California Institute of Integral Studies. In her free time, Lauren can be found dancing, meditating, adventuring outdoors, making music, and spending QT with loved ones.